My Journey Home

I came into this life as pure unconditional love, and soon realized there was a dense physical world to navigate. I came into a family with a mother and brother who dealt with mental health issues and a father with whom I felt very connected and who was mostly unavailable. I also came into life in the San Francisco Bay Area; a place I felt energetically aligned with, safe and at home with.

Looking out our front picture window at the massive Pacific; the sea breeze and misty fog gave me a feeling of peace and groundedness. Deep inside I knew I was home and safe, even though looking out I felt separate and confused. I knew what people around me felt; I knew their thoughts, and I was confused when their words and actions didn't match.

As a child I became very withdrawn and labeled as shy.

I always felt at home and connected to nature and the animals - all animals. I felt they were one with me. Their energies matched their actions. Nature also never lied, and always felt safe to me. Living near the massive wild Pacific was my security. I felt loved and protected.

There have been many dramatic and difficult experiences as a young child, throughout my early teens and even into early adulthood. Each one had a divine and perfect purpose in guiding me to the life I came here to live. There were an equal number of profound, beautiful, divinely guided experiences that reminded me of my true nature, my true divinity, and that I was never alone and always loved and protected.

From the time I was a small child I have had a deep spiritual connection to nature and animals. We always had animals growing up, I fell in love with my first very own kitty in my early teens and we were so connected it felt like we were one. Growing up and into adulthood I fell in love with the mountains, rivers, streams, lakes, and the amazing trees of the area. My experience in Oregon at 13 years old was life changing - the Sequoia redwoods spoke to me. They activated something inside, I knew them. I knew they knew me. Again I felt an intense love and oneness in that forrest. And it wasn't just the trees, it was also the air, the ground, the birds and wildlife, the moon and stars. I felt more at home during that trip that I ever had before. I was forever changed.

It took years to integrate and fully understand what all this meant and how important it was. It took several life-changing experiences that I labeled as bad and an equally amazing number of divine life-changing experiences that were wonderful. And all that led me to here.

I now fully understand my connection to Mother Earth, to all sentient beings, to all of life.

I am present in each moment

I am presence itself

I am one with the divine

One with the One Power and One Presence that is Source God

I am not just the wave but the whole ocean

I am the vessel and I surrender as this one power and one presence animates within and through me.

Thank you God.
And so it is.
Amen Amen Amen.